I don’t know how many people are like me, but I am ALWAYS making plans! And I make them all the time and they are not flexible plans which is really bad and I need to stop doing that. Because my plans hardly ever go ahead and if they do they nearly always go wrong- ever the optimist 🙂
At the moment there are some really tight plans that I am terrified wont go right and I really want them to go my way. They are only my life plans so no big deal, right?
First of all there are my GCSE’s. I think I mentioned it before but I am taking Art, Drama, History, Geography, and French as well has English, Maths, Biology, Physics and Chemistry (I also get 1/2 a GCSE in R.E. and another 1/2 in citizenship). Now that’s a lot of exams as you do quite a few in English because it’s split up, too many for my liking in Maths and 3 in French (I’m not sure about the other subjects). I would really love to get A’s in all of them, wouldn’t everyone? I know that is probably not going to happen but I really want at least a B in every subject apart from maths which I would be happy to even get a U if I’m honest.
People think just because I am in top set for everything that I can do everything, if you think this then let me tell you something; you couldn’t be more wrong. If I say “I struggle so much in maths.” their response is always “OH MY GOODNESS! No you don’t! You are so smart you’re in set 1! I find it difficult, I’m in set 5!” Or something on similar line to that. Just because I am in top set doesn’t mean I can do all these things. When I say I struggle in maths I really mean it. I am at the bottom of my set and I am sooooooo slow. I only ever understand things and do well in them (in maths) when everyone else can’t do them. If everyone else gets it I don’t.
SIDE NOTE: I just tried to whip a cat hair off my screen with the mouse- it didn’t work.
I wish people didn’t always moan at me every time I found something hard. Not only is it actually hurtful it is SO ANNOYING!!! Also I HATE it when people say “Oh what did you get” and I reply with something like “97%/100%/8C etc.” and they always say something like “Oh WHATEVER!” or “Shut UP!” for anyone who has ever told me that, or you do this to other people; SHUT THE FUCK UP! You ASKED ME!!! I answered you. Do NOT tell me to shut up. If you are being a jealous prick study harder and get your own great score. It’s not my fault I’m smarter than you. I don’t think you will be telling me to shut up when I’m making my millions because I studied hard at school when you mucked about and told people to shut up because they got good grades and now you have to work in McDonalds if you managed to get high enough grades!
The second thing I have prepared for is Sixth Form, for A Levels I want to take Art, Photography, Performing Arts, French and maybe R.E. if I can squeeze it in. But the problems I face are what if I cant find another school that have good departments in these subjects? What if teachers change? What if the school I have my eye on for a particular A Level stops doing the subject I want to take? What if it all gets too much? What if they are too hard? What if I fail?
All these What if’s haunt me and will continue to haunt me until I actually get to Sixth Form. the there is what come after 6th form.
A few months ago I stumbled across a website called New York Film Academy (NYFA) and they offer such great courses. I thought it looked like a good school but I wasn’t really that interested because it was in America and I don’t really want to leave home for university, however a few weeks ago they sent me an email about a film making/acting workshop that was happening in London. I told my friend Olivia about it and we decided to go. (I nearly forgot to tell my mum I was going!) Anyway since last Saturday (Sat 21st June)- which is when we went my plans and dreams have changed once more. Now Olivia and I would love to attend the summer camps for 1 week in New York in 2017 and we really want to go to this academy and do the 1-2 year programme in acting because it sounds so simply amazing and they offer such amazing opportunities. However neither of our families are very rich and this particular university happens to be very pricey. I have the bad luck of being the youngest so my mum will have hardly any money to spend on my Uni fees if she is already paying for SR and F’s universities. I guess I’ll just have to start saving now, although I’ll still never be able to afford it. I will try my best and hope that I find a couple thousand pound on the side of the road…